(27
January 2014)
Life!
She
was talking about life, and I was lost somewhere near death. I know its religion's part of
job to find out the after life experience. Its out of my intelligence
too.
For
me, life is very simple. Her smile is my life, as simple as that. Obviously, it was not matching with what she was explaining. I was stubborn enough to ignore her, and I was
giving the expression of listening, and I was blank.. because death is blank, it is void…
"you idiot, don't show that face, listen to me
this time, you are gonna miss me talking :p"
Sruthy was showing me the face, which is my favourite, the tongue out smile, literally I haven't seen anyone else doing that, other than in the chat emoticon
set.. She is so cute, am I gonna miss that?
It
was better if we interchanged our roles, I would have been happy to die than
living another day without her.
I
was still feeling the warmth of
her hand in mine. Her thin hands always used to be ice cold. But not now. I could feel that 105 degrees which the nurse scribbled in her file few moments ago. She lead my hand up to her chest, right over her heart.
It was like our
special moments, when I used to keep my hand over her heart, where I could feel
her heart beat. The soft rhythm of my love, and I knew that well.
But now it
wasn't the same. I could feel the struggle of her life. Abruptly I tried to
pull my hand, but she was holding it tight.
"Krishna,
you always wanted to listen and remember your love beating here every time I
told bye"
Each time when
we met, before we leave I used do this, when she told bye. But this time I wouldn't let her say bye.
She was still
smiling.
Suddenly her
smile went off. I saw pain in her eyes. She took a very long
breath.
I could then
realise with pain that, her heart beats were slowing down, every lub-dub were
lagging as if it is going to stop. Her eyes were wide open but the pupils were
half hidden staring up.
I was hit by a
shiver, I pressed the alarm button hard and I cried out loud
"DOCTOR......"
--tbc--
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